Embodied Wisdom 

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You know what?

As I reflect back I believe I was aware of my mothers pain from the time I grew in her belly, I believe our bodies hold all of the memories in our cells and I also believe something higher was taking care of her and taking care of me.

Thank god she made the decision to change all of our lives. I am grateful as I do not know what my childhood would have been like or the kind of woman I would be today, had she stayed. In saying this though healing the absence of my father has been quite a journey.

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I guess you could say I was exposed to a lot of experiences in the first developmental stages of my life.

Which I believe along with my souls natural own attributes had created lots of sensitivity in the body, which I was not able to understand and I spent my whole life trying to get away from a avalanche of constant feelings.

When I was a small child my mother would take me to the supermarket and to places. I would find myself being bombarded by thoughts and feelings.

I was strongly empathic which means I could feel other peoples energy. I was completely confused and believed in angels more than in life itself. My body believed life wasn’t safe, I learnt to run from life at a very young age.

I had to get away from all of these feelings because as far as I was concerned I did not want to belong in this body or this world, this did not feel like a safe place.

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I was very visual at a young age experiencing the light and the shadow. I had amazing visuals of angels and euphoria, and an inner connection to something higher.

I also experienced the complete opposite of this, which resulted in graphic and terrifying nightmares. And at the time I could not understand, how to manage my ability to feel other people and how to do this in a small body?

I needed some help and thankfully something higher was guiding me. At around 5 years of age I found a foundation to stand upon.

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I would not consider myself to be religious and neither are my parents, however someone would always come into my life and would take me to church! Whether it was my grandparents, a neighbour, or family friends it just seemed to happen and I love the people at church.

The Sunday school teachers helped me find nurturing and safety through a higher connection and most importantly how to connect to the state of peace that already existed inside of me. Singing and dancing began to help me heal.

Dance was a huge turning point for me I am so grateful to my mother who put me into dance classes at a very young age. This became a huge friend to me, as it helped me come home to my body.

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This time I learnt to go inward through music & movement, I learnt through dancing that life is safe and found this a way to feel joy & peace.

I was connecting to my purpose once again at a young age, I am now an embodiment dance teacher helping people to became connected and centred in themselves by dancing.

So my mother, she went on to re marry a kind-hearted soul and this changed all of our lives for the better. When I was old enough I would even ride my bike to church on weekends, I think my parents thought I was a little crazy but they were always supportive of what made us happy.